My spirits were dampened when I calculated my L1R4 and 5 marks, last week. At that moment, it just felt like the world was seriously gonna end. Nothing mattered anymore.

I then went for friday mass to reflect on some things that I should have thought about a long time ago, and I guess that kinda helped me become more optimistic about things. The glass is half full is what I should always say when life's setbacks appear. I guess I have always prayed for good results, without even trying, thinking that God would help me. I was wrong. My sloth-ness has got me to where I am now. In an awfully pathetic state, with a tiny ray of light at the end of the tunnel. Motivation and discipline is what I should have always been praying for. Its no wonder why everything always seems to be against me. I guess the prelims did teach me a fair bit.

Today was comforting, knowing that my prayers were actually answered (for once), I guess I just never knew how lucky I am. Its probably a sign for me to fulfill what I should have been doing a long time ago.

I'll try my best, I promise.